Throughout my whole 17+ years of my life, he's the first person I met from my father's side family.
Yes, I've never seen anyone from his side of the family before. So now, I'll only know my Dad and Grandfather.
We drove towards Upper Thomson Road. I have no idea what's the place called, but we ended up in a temple-like place.
We walked down flights of stairs, and I finally got to catch a glimpse of his face. He's located at the back of many other yellow boxes.
I'll never get to hear his voice though. I don't think he knows what I look like either.
If you haven't figured it out, I'll make it easier for you:
My grandfather is dead.
I have no idea what is this feeling in me.
It's my first time seeing him, but he's... not alive.
It's so hard for me to type all of this out. As of the moment, tears are threatening to fall. And I have no idea why.
I mean, it's the first time I get to know a little more about my father's family.
But the first person I get to know, is dead.
I'll never know what kind of person he was really like. I'll never know if he'd ever like me as a granddaughter.
It's just so weird.
Usually, I wouldn't type such stuff here. But I have a reason for doing so today.
Recently, I'm starting to see something.
At the start of 2008, my great grandmother passed away. My relatives cried, so much. So, so much.
A few months later, I heard that Monica passed away. I don't even know her personally, but it made me cry.
Several days ago, my friend's friend passed away. The feeling of loss expressed through her words were so honest, and it made me wonder how the victim's family and close friends are feeling.
And just this morning, my other friend's grandmother passed away. I can't imagine the loss he must feel.
It feels like fate is showing me the whole world around me. One step at a time.
16. I learnt Respect and Kindness. 17, I learnt the meaning of Effort. And now, going 18,
I'm learning death.
So everyone, treasure who you have with you.
Don't keep spending time being angry or sad or frustrated.
For you'll never know when the inevitable will happen. =((
-------------------A world Of PeaCe--------------- ; {11:24 PM}
